Good Eats

Dutch Oliebollen

1 lemon
1 sour apple*
500g flower
75g raisins*
1/2litre milk
20-25g fresh yeast (or one small package which is 7g here)
50g chopped candied peel*
1 teaspoon sugar
1 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon cinnamon


-Wash the lemon, dry it, and grate the peel. Chop the lemon in half and squeeze the juice in a glass. -Peel the apple, chop it in 4 pieces, remove the core. Cut the 4 parts into tiny little pieces, put them in a bowl and mix them with the lemon juice.
-Wash the raisins, and let them leak out.
-Heat the milk in a saucepan until it's tepid.(max 40°C, so don't let it boil!)
-Crumble the fresh yeast, mix it with the sugar and 1dl (100ml!) tepid milk in a bowl, and stir until it's a nice smooth mixture.
-Mix the flower with the salt in a big bowl. Make a little hole in the centre, and pour the yeast mixture into it. After that add the (tepid)milk that is left into the same hole. Mix it with a hand blender or a spoon until it's a nice smooth mixture.
-Mix the grated lemon peel, the apple pieces (with the lemon juice), the raisins, the chopped candied peel and the cinnamon into the mixture.
-Cover the bowl with some foil and let the batter stand (rise) for about an hour on warm spot.

-Heat the deep-frying fat until it reaches 180ÂșC. Now, you can do the next step with a soup spoon (a deep big one). Stick the spoon in the heated fat for a couple of seconds; this will prevent the batter from sticking to the spoon. Use the spoon just as you would use it to serve soup. Make sure the spoon is filled with the batter, and carefully dip it into the oil/fat. Repeat this, but don't have more than 4 of them into the oil at the same time (this also depends on the size of your pan). Fry the 'oliebollen' for about 8-10 minutes until they are nice gold brownish.(rotate the them with a fork after 4 minutes, so the whole thing gets fried equally).

(-Repeat this step until the all of the batter is used.)

-Let the 'oliebollen' leak out on some kitchen paper before you serve them. Arrange them on a nice dish and don't forget the powdered sugar!

*If you don't like raisins, apples or candied peel, you can leave this out. After you fried the 'naked oliebollen', let them leak out, and cut them open. Now you can stuff them with whipped cream, strawberries, or whatever you prefer. (or eat them without anything, that's my favourite way, just with loads of sugar!)You can eat them hot, or cold. It's not a problem if you let them cool down; keep them in the refrigerator and just heat them the next day in your oven.

*You can also mix some nuts (hazelnuts for example)in the batter.

Typical Dutch Stuff


Saturday Night

Saturday night over there. Could be worse than any other night, could be better. Maybe somebody'll get angry and break something, maybe not. Seems most of the raw brawlin' days are rare over there these days. Hope I'm not mistaken.



Stanislaw Lem

This past weekend I was fortunate enough to find one of those old Science Fiction Treasury books with heaps of short stories from various authors. Mr. Stanislaw Lem is included with a couple of intriguing short stories. I've been a big fan of Mr. Lems works since I first laid eyes upon them. So, a quick plug for Stansislaw Lem.



This is a nice choice for the person looking to enhance their computer experience.

"Ubuntu" is an ancient African word, meaning "humanity to others". Ubuntu also means "I am what I am because of who we all are". The Ubuntu Linux distribution brings the spirit of Ubuntu to the software world.

That's right friends, xp is not the only thing that can run a computer. Your computer is stupid unless it's told what to do by an 'operating system'. Many people believe that automagicly means windows. When you buy your new computer it comes loaded with all kinds of ploys to get you to buy something or other. How many times must I say 'no' to aol? It's a sham, you're getting the short end of the stick.

Ubuntu is a linux distro that promises to be easy. Linux has often caused conniption fits in the average comp user because it looks so daunting. Not so with Ubuntu.

There is a large community as well that is eager to help you out and walk you through it. It actually doesn't look much different than what you have right now. Point and click. Some things are different but with time you'll realize that these differences offer up more flexability. More control over your machine. You should be the master of your machine, not the other way around.

So hit up the site and dl or order some cds and give it a shot. That box sitting there humming will love you for it. Remember it's stupid until it's told what to do, treat it kindly.

While you're at it, check out edubuntu then remind your school district that they can quit wasting money on frivolous candy. Education should not be dictated by dollar signs.


Your Money Hungry Dominatrix

Rant: proceed.
Ok, that bitch is hogging up every viable measly excuse for 'search' that can greet any average web surfer. The bitch keeps trying to make you believe that what you really want is a new set of shoes not physics. The bitch wants to keep you absolutely stupid.

Welcome to 2005. Government is only a cherade for profit and research only means buy. You are nothing more than fodder. Get it, and get it through your thick stupid branded skull that you don't mean shit. In the big picture: the world, this earth is dying and waiting to be reborn. In the big picture that friendly face on the tv is saying 'fuck you, I want mine'. In the big picture, you are less than dirt. You are fodder for the cannon of rich boys with shiny new toys. Wake up.

Should I detail this so that the contingent of herrings,clouds, and sociopaths who ihhabit this 'search' can drive you mad with bullshit? Perhaps not.

Inhabit your spirit. Walk the walk. Or paint a billboard with your name in blood. (metaphoricly)


Might as well

I enjoy serendipitously ripping pics from other peoples collections and re-posting them here. Although I'm not one to think for a moment that monkeyboy is alone in his miscreant ways, these pics a are a hoot and he deserves it.


The muppets

What a great frog :)

and bytes of bluegrass is most awesome today :)


'Tis what 'tis

If you're holding out for universal popularity, I'm afraid you will be in this cabin for a very long time.
J. K. Rowling Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire




Pink Floyd: Bike

I've got a bike
You can ride it if you like
It's got a basket
A bell that rings
And things to make it look good
I'd give it to you if I could
But I borrowed it

You're the kind of girl that fits in with my world
I'll give you anything
Everything if you want things

I've got a cloak
It's a bit of a joke
There's a tear up the front
It's red and black
I've had it for months
If you think it could look good
Then I guess it should

You're the kind of girl that fits in with my world
I'll give you anything
Everything if you want things

I know a mouse
And he hasn't got a house
I don't know why
I call him Gerald
He's getting rather old
But he's a good mouse

You're the kind of girl that fits in with my world
I'll give you anything
Everything if you want things

I've got a clan of gingerbread men
Here a man
There a man
Lots of gingerbread men
Take a couple if you wish
They're on the dish

You're the kind of girl that fits in with my world
I'll give you anything
Everything if you want things

I know a room full of musical tunes
Some rhyme
Some ching
Most of them are clockwork
Let's go into the other room and make them work


Just a couple of quotes

"Spending time outside of Washington always gives the president a fresh perspective of what's on the minds of the American people,""It's a time, really, for him to shed the coat and tie and meet with folks out in the heartland and hear what's on their minds." White House press secretary Scott McClellan

"..it's also important for me to go on with my life," GW Bush

Support Cindy Sheehan's efforts at:

Crawford Peace House
P.O. Box 710218
Dallas, Tx. 75371-0218



Raining Maggots

If you were there you know what I'm talkin' bout.

There's a monkey man up there flippin us off, let's flip him off and lop off his damn head..There is a flippin of the man of the monkey in on here we outside, lascili launch it outside and lop outside of its cursed head. grazie

Now that's a big pit. "You with the red hair and you over here" Devil Driver what a trip.

The storm cometh, raining maggots

If you happen to be in these pics and want them removed send me a profoundly ugly and profane message and I'll take it down.

Unfortunately my pictures of CLUTCH all turned out very badly. There is an entry on this blog somewhere about me doing a pseudo indian wardance on my old cheap digital camera so all the pictures were taken with a cheap disposable camera and it's not very good. Regardless of the pics though, I'd reccomend to anyone who's into this music to definitely check out The Sounds of the Underground tour. It was a hella experience for sure.


bite me

Well I've been busy trying to cull the pics from the wayback machines archives of subvertise. Some real gems there. Too bad it had to go down.



In less than a week I'm going to see one of my all-time favorite bands, CLUTCH.

American Sleep

Mistress of ices
Stygian Skater
Scribing devices
Dancing on sabres
So very relentless
Counting the sheep
Electrical fences
Americans leap
Dream scarabaeus
In chorus refraining
So very relentless
Counting the sheep
Electrical fences
Americans leap
One, two, fisherman's stew
Boiled on timber and stirred with a broom
Three, four, pour it on the floor
Feed all the beasties and cook up some more
Five, six, mortar and brick
Weaker than iron but stronger than sticks
Seven, eight, lock up the gate
Nothing to do but to sit and to wait
Nine, ten, do it again
Bun in the oven, a wolf in the den
Companion chimera
Lethean grazer
Pausing to herald
Mistress of sabers
So very relentless
Counting the sheep
Electrical fences
Americans leap

I've been listening to these guys since

They blew my mind.

That was just on the cusp of the personalities and ideals commodities market takeover by the likes of the giants now slinging counter culture like candy from a parade. There are alot of bands that have dressed themselves in the guilty pleasures of corporate romance but CLUTCH has stayed the course and remains to this day a solid and soulful band of musicians of utmost talent. Plain and simple they


Corporate Watch at the G8

Corporatewatch UK has a blog about being at the G8


Another Observation

Fireworks have much greater effect at 4 in the morning than they do at 7 at night. There's just something special about setting off a 2000 roll of firecrackers to kick off the holiday just right. Eggs and Bacon anybody? Waffles? I'll wave a flag. Y'know, with my new cowboy hat and all I take things literally, like in the dawns early light. 'round here that means lets blow some shig up. .. and in honor of the holiday ... another regurgitation from my archives .....

That's just sumthin else huh? Well all I can say is if you don't like firecrackers on the 4th of july your'e just UN-AMERICAN! Downright unpatriotic, you are if you can't wake up to the sound of freedom and democracy, liberty even. Shock and awe right next door. HELL YEAH BUDDY.


A simple fool observation

When you run the rubber part of a window squeejie over clean glass it sounds like Chewbacca.


Conservative Watchdogs Say No to Just Say No

Drug Czar's Office A "Federal Wasteland" That Fails To Show Results:
Study Says ONDCP's Anti-Drug Ads, State Lobbying Efforts Cited As Grossly Inappropriate And Ineffective
Washington, DC:The White House Office of National Drug Control Policy (ONDCP) has wasted more than $4 billion since fiscal year 1997 on ineffective media advertising, inappropriate efforts to influence state legislation, and deficient anti-drug trafficking programs, according to a report released this week by the non-partisan Washington, DC think-tank Citizens Against Government Waste (CAGW).
"The White House [ONDCP] has morphed into a federal wasteland, throwing taxpayer money toward numerous high-priced drug control
programs that have failed to show results," the report concludes.
The report cites the office's $2 billion National Youth Anti-Drug Media Campaign as one of the agency's most egregious programs, calling it "an utter failure ... [that] violated federal propaganda laws, did not reduce drug use amongst America's youth, and produced no significant results." Other independent reviews of the Campaign, including those conducted by the Annenberg School for Communication at the University
of Pennsylvania, have issued similar criticisms, noting that it failed to achieve "its major objective of affecting youth marijuana use, and [it]
even showed some evidence of an unfavorable delayed effect ... on youth."
The CAGW study also criticizes the Drug Czar's office for spending taxpayers' dollars to campaign against proposed state legislation to
liberalize the medical use of cannabis. The report notes that ONDCP officials lobbied in person against several statewide legislative efforts and spent nearly $100 million to run anti-marijuana advertisements aimed at influencing voters to reject state ballot initiatives.
"[T]he office continues to waste federal resources to influence the outcome of state ballot initiatives, acting like Big Brother and infringing upon states' rights," it states. "The White House's drug office should use its resources to root out major drug operations in the US instead of creating propaganda-filled news videos and flying across the country on the taxpayers' dime."
NORML Executive Director Allen St. Pierre added, "With the White House Office of Management and Budget recently rating the Drug Enforcement Administration a 'zero' in the category of 'results/accountability,' and a conservative watchdog group now calling the ONDCP a 'federal wasteland' of inefficiency, isn't it about time for Congress to reevaluate the drug war and, specifically, the Administration's costly and ineffective war on cannabis?"

Full text of the Citizens Against Government Waste report, "Up In Smoke: ONDCP's Wasted Efforts In the War on Drugs,"
is available online in pdf at:

Thing is .... most any stoner could have told them this a long time ago. Kind of like a "Welll, DUH!"


Old School Goa

Recently a budro of mine posted up a mix of old school goa that listens and reads like a who's who of the beginning, the roots. It's inspiring and reminds me that I am now in a position to say "I was there when it all started". I was awed the first time he whipped out those crazy records with the mindblowing sounds and psychadellic covers. No words, just pure unadulterated spirit and a deep connection to something unexplored and ultimately completely universal. A journey beyond this world every sunset and an epiphany every sunrise. Early Goa guided me through many trials and I always found solace in it's beats and harmonies. It was through goa that I learned the secrets of the voice of the universe and humanities role in it. It was in those early days that I learned the true nature of the 'ecstatic experience'. Simply, only experience can describe that connection to the other dancers and the fluidity of movement that takes place as one body. It is a trance experienced and multiplied through the body movement. Goa taught me my first lessons in mind/body/spirit connection that actually meant anything and weren't just words upon a page. It was and is now real. Though the music has progressed and exponentially become more technical and advanced it is through the roots by which the tree grows. A big hug and thank you to Mel B for taking me back. He's like an old goa shaman standing there with a twinkle in his eyes inviting you in and saying "hey, wanna try something that's gonna blow your mind" and the next thing you know you're in another world. All the while he's smiling happily, sharing what he has found like a secret treasure, and your life has now taken on a new meaning. One cool brotha. So here's the link. You have to sign up to Global Beatz to get it. It's free.(which btw, tons of other great mixes and talent). PLAY IT LOUD.

Mix URL: http://music2.globalbeatz.net/dj_mixes/dawn_of_goa.mp3


Leaky Chambers

NIAID Encourages Use of Leaky Device in Biodefense
Chambers are Located in Nine US States, India, New Zealand, and Northern Ireland

(Austin, 18 April 2005) - A leaky aerosol chamber manufactured by the University of Wisconsin at Madison was responsible for three laboratory-acquired tuberculosis infections in a Seattle BSL-3 lab last year. The infections have not been made public until now. Nearly twenty Madison chambers exist across the US and in India, New Zealand, and Northern Ireland. While tuberculosis is not a biological weapons agent, the accident underscores the inherent dangers when working with dangerous disease agents, and the grave safety risks of the US biodefense program, which is encouraging more scientists to deliberately aerosolize bioweapons agents in Madison chambers and similar equipment.

The Madison chamber incident is the latest to be reported in a series of US lab accidents, including infections and/or mishandling of anthrax, tularemia, and pandemic influenza. At the encouragement of the National Institutes of Health (NIH), Madison chambers have been purchased for use in Massachusetts, Connecticut, New York, North Carolina, Georgia, Texas, Colorado, Wisconsin, and California, as well as India, Northern Ireland, and New Zealand. More of the suspect chambers may be in use; but the legal counsel of the University of Wisconsin at Madison has refused to answer questions and has been reluctant to promptly answer requests filed under Wisconsin open records law. the story goes on

Was it not so long ago that we had our big Anthrax scare? Those evil terrorists and their biological warfare. Oh you mean we do that too? And you mean the substances could escape through faulty equipment?


My Spidey sense tells me somthings not right.

Excerpt From Amazing Spiderman (v2) #36
The WTC issue
Written by J. Michael Straczynski

...What do we tell the children?
Do we tell them the evil is a foreign face?

No. The evil is the thought behind the face, and it can look just like yours.

Do we tell them evil is tangible, with defined borders and names and geometries
and destinies?

No. They will have nightmares enough.

Perhaps we tell them that we are sorry.
Sorry that we were not able to deliver unto them the world we wished them to
That our eagerness to shout is not the equal of our willingness to listen.

That the burdens of distant people are the responsibility of all men and women
of conscience, or their burdens will one day become our tragedy.

Or perhaps we simply tell them that we love them, and that we will protect
them. That we would give our lives for theirs and do it gladly, so great is
the burden of our love.

In a universe of Gameboys and VCRs, it is, perhaps, an insubstantial gift. But
it is the only one that will wash away the tears and knit the wounds and make
the world a sane place to live in.....

.....A world which will not require apologies to children, but also a world whose
roads are not paved with the husks of their inalienable rights.

What do we tell the children now? It seems that we are telling them evil has a foreign face, that they must kill in order to spread 'freedom' and 'democracy'. Look what our leaders have done in the aftermath of that fateful day and look hard into how they used the American people and manipulated that spirit to their own ends. Our nation is to blame as well for great bloodshed of innocents: mothers, children, fathers, who had nothing to do with our tragedy, who's only desire is to live a free and peaceful life. Our leaders have taken these dreams and turned them into a railroad train to destruction and many of the citizens of this nation go along so willingly into that fray, into that insanity as if it is from god himself that they be ordained the only ones free, that we must kill all who oppose our idea of freedom while wealthy individuals line their pockets with money paid for in blood, disease, hunger, poverty, and the large scale destrucion of our very planet. While those very same lead their own lambs to the slaughter. Souless, greedy, insane, they are not heroes but rather the villains and we would do well to remember that.

In this universe of videogames: here's a short bit from the U.S. Army video game faq to parents:

Q: Why are you doing the game?
A: it is part of the Army's communications strategy

The Army's game is an entertaining way for young adults to explore the Army and its adventures and opportunities as a virtual Soldier. As such, it is part of the Army's communications strategy designed to leverage the power of the Internet as a portal through which young adults can get a first hand look at what it is like to be a Soldier. The game introduces players to different Army schools, Army training, and life in the Army. Given the popularity of computer games and the ability of the Internet to deliver great content, a game was the perfect venue for highlighting different aspects of the Army. Firms such as Toyota have used games for this educational purpose with considerable success.

Q: Is this a recruiting tool?
A: it provides young adults and their influencers with virtual insights about the Army

The game is designed to provide young adults and their influencers with virtual insights into entry level Soldier training, training in units and Army operations so as to provide insights into what the Army is like. As in the past, the Army's success in attracting high-potential young adults is essential to building the world's premier land force. With the passage of time, elimination of the draft and reductions in the size of the Army have resulted in a marked decrease in the number of Americans who have served in the Army and from whom young adults can gain vicarious insights into the challenges and rewards of Soldiering and national service. Therefore, the game is designed to substitute virtual experiences for vicarious insights. It does this in an engaging format that takes advantage of young adults' broad use of the Internet for research and communication and their interest in games for entertainment and exploration.

Q: Should children 13+ be exposed to what the Army does?
A: young adults can see how our training builds and prepares Soldiers to serve in units in defense of freedom.

In elementary school kids learn about the actions of the Continental Army that won our freedoms under George Washington and the Army's role in ending Hitler's oppression. Today they need to know that the Army is engaged around the world to defeat terrorist forces bent on the destruction of America and our freedoms. The game provides a virtual means to explore a variety of Soldier experiences in basic training, advanced training, and training missions in real world Army units, so that young adults can see how our training builds and prepares Soldiers to serve in units in defense of freedom.

"Freedom, liberty, democracy, death' repeat after me 'Freedom, liberty, democracy, death' the chant goes on.


Blowin Smoke

A Cat and his bong

A bong I did,

No I did not,

I wish I did,

But I'm out of pot.


Our Undivided Attention

The speed of the Earths rotation is approximately 25,000 miles per 24hrs. This is the simple answer and doesn't go into tangents and real details but it serves my simple mind (* and would only lead good folk much brighter than I to long explanations as to why I'm an idiot). Imagine we are all on a carousel. Each individuals exact perception will be different at any given moment. The horse rider will see one blur while the one on the jack ass will see differently yet we all know that once we get off we can stand around and look at the carousel for what it is. At that moment of recollection we relegate a commonality of experience and combine our various views into one nice round ball of aquiescence (*hey language is a living thing). Yes, the spinning was nice and slow and peaceful, yes the blurs of carnival lights were a trip, yes the wooden horse hurt posterior as it bounced up and down, but those horses are pretty and we all loved going in a circle of stimuli. It has a great homely feel to it because we've been taught that from day one. Now, what about the freak cave child who doesn't know what the hell that thing is? Maybe that child will just get on for the hell of it out of a sincere and deep focus towards adventure. They get off and state " that was dumb" They then proceed to tell this group of noble carnival adventurers that the entire idea is one of stupidity because real horses could take us much farther than in some silly circle. The group turns and decides this is an abnormality, thus below recognition. Not only do they ignore this poor cavechilds observation but decide to deride it publicly. They promote the idea that going in a circle on the merry go round is our only real option for any sort of excitement. Anyone in their right mind absolutely knows that is the height we can reach, point blank, nuff said, deal with it. The cavechild doesn't even recognize these blase' limitiations and continues to commit the faux pah doo doo on their ideals. He says " hey , here's a real horse, we just went a gallopping over the countryside and you won't believe what we saw", ok maybe he grunts but with deep communication and a true desire to appeal to their sense of escape. He's trying to simply share something wonderful. "Look, we don't have to go in a circle", that's all, but it's percieved as a grave threat. The group decides this must not be. No-one can surpass our experience here, and it becomes a hidden agenda, unbeknownst even to them. They commit themselves to the destruction of this myth of free roaming equestrians out of a sense of loyalty to to the common ideal, the sanctimony of group conscience (whatever that may be). They hunt him down and kill him and his stupid live horse. Though they feel a sort of sadness at the whole event they eventually convince each other it was in the best interests of the group. Now they can sleep at night knowing there's always the thrill of going in circles on wooden jackasses. welcome to my world.

Bodhi says wtf


Base to Mind Control, We have a problem

Taken from http://www.geocities.com/alienaxioms/mind-control.html

The Facts About Mind Control And Brainwashing

A select group of people know they are contributing to the success of creating confusion among the masses of this world in order to conceal their true agenda of which all human beings are a part, willing or unwilling. The conscious and intelligent manipulation of the organized habits and opinions of the masses is an important element in society. Those who manipulate this unseen mechanism of society constitute an invisible government that is the true ruling power. You are governed, your mind is molded, your tastes formed, your ideas suggested, largely by people you have never met or heard of before. This is the logical result of the way in which society functions today. Vast numbers of human beings must co-operate in this controlled manner if they are to live together in peace and prosperity. Whatever attitude one chooses to take toward this conditioning, it remains a fact that in almost every act of daily life, whether in the sphere of politics or business, in your social conduct or your ethical thinking, you are dominated by a relatively small number of people who understand the mental processes and mental patterns of the masses. The real issue or concern is whether or not you are aware of the fact that your freedom has been substituted by mind enslavement.

The urgency of your attention this very moment is straightforward. Your mind is being controlled by others and used against you. You are now ready to understand the truth and the madness. It is time for you to wake up and take control before you are physically, emotionally and mentally changed forever. Consumerism has been used as the substance of this new creation while psychology is the essence of deceptive change. The general populous has become consumption and economic slaves of addiction.

You are in total control of your mind so let no other human being fill your mind with fear, uncertainty, psychic phenomena or mental waste. There is no battle between good and evil. By allowing your mind to dwell on such polarizing symbolism, you allow yourself to keep participating in the subservient deeds of those you don't even know. The checks and balances of the good and evil model provide the illusion of fear, uncertainty, luck or misfortune in your life. Pass no judgments and these phantasms of deception and control have no basis.

Now look around and see how many minds are infected with addiction and consumption. Look at how the "puppet masters" have raped minds through disbanding, fragmenting, splintering and even destroying knowledge that might have helped many realize their own true being and essence.

Knowledge has been twisted and used against you to control your freedom. Today's society has become rich in academic twisted knowledge and very poor in awareness and truth. Religion, philosophy and new age spiritual teachings are only a few of the various devices being used to blind you from the truth of who and what you really are. Your own mind is being used against you to consume your true identity and keep you under the watchful control of the "puppet masters" who rule through means of fear, uncertainty, addiction, consumption and twisted knowledge.

Your mind has been turned into an unfathomable and imperishable ocean of deception. It is your own mind that has become your enemy. It is always the habit of the human mind to be thinking about something, to be always contemplating upon the forms and figures of various persons, places and things. It is your mind that has the cravings and desires and the "puppet masters" know this in great detail. Think of how you have been conditioned into deep thought with the planning and scheming of lusting for wealth, power, and control. It is through your mind that you experience the pleasures of success or the agony of defeat. As a friend, your mind uses its techniques of deception to get you to fulfill its desires. As an enemy, it uses fear to threaten you into fulfilling its cravings. Your mind may lead you astray any way it can, by keeping you from discovering your true identify. This is for the most part, the design of those who would willfully deceive you. Whether you believe it or not, you have been living in someone elses world right up until this very moment. Your mind has been conditioned to accept the puppet masters view of pleasure and your physical senses have been shaped to conform to their will. Your awareness right now is beginning to take back control of your life which has been stolen from you.

Is your mind in love or attached to any physical object? If so, you have been conditioned. Are desires, cravings, attitudes or opinions clouding your attention? If so, your senses are playing on the desires and cravings created by others. You are being moved about like an emotional rag doll. Now think how long it took you to lose control of yourself. It started with your parents and your grandparents. It was a slow methodical process of programming you out of your own true identity.

Modify, impair or change the human brain and you reduce, increase, or modify the mind's ability to function autonomously. Your mind needs you to take charge of your desires and cravings. To do this you have to attach your mind to the greatest thought that exists. The thought of your own unique identity, inner peace, and freedom.

Need more proof. The reconstruction of your consciousness into this automaton thing is being executed in such a manner that it goes virtually undetected; in fact you are doing it to yourself and don't even know it. Why with the proper incentive, you're doing it to yourself and just love it - look at all the "stuff" you have. You are so comfortable you have become passive, submissive, and you don't even have to think. You just go with the flow. It feels good and quite natural running on automatic. However, disrupt your automatic mental state with even the simplest of problems - like misplacing your keys or wallet - and life becomes a living hell in your mind until you find those keys or wallet to re-establish your habitual routine. This becomes true of any little problem in life. You want it resolved as fast as possible, to stop the mental frustration, torment and confusion. You have become so addicted to living life under the control of others that even small annoyances become stressful events in your life.

You are constantly being fed images, sounds and information to keep your mind habitually thinking and speculating upon matters that have little or nothing to do with your life. This keeps you self-programming your mind to react and respond in specific ways to various stimuli when presented. For example, your television is literally programming you. The negative factor associated with the news is the same stress factor that causes changes in your mental and emotional thinking patterns which cause physical changes to your body; sickness, disease, and possibly premature death. Why you even carry the news with you wherever you go, stressing everyone out with it. You argue with others about it, even fight physically about these opinions that were given to you. After only a few years of the news, the stress and this unnatural human interaction, have made you addicted to living someone elses life. You even start things going with those you know will argue and fight with you over a trivial matter. You get your mental and emotional fix in this way. Emotional, drug like habits are being developed in you to generate abnormal states of depression, loneliness, and many other unusual and unnatural states of mind. Through repetition, your mind quickly identifies itself with certain unnatural, emotional, and mental states of consciousness as being normal. A few years ago you would have viewed this as abnormal.

Your emotions are being used against you to lead directly to the habituation and subsequent automation of your mind. Your emotions are being developed to rule over your intellect because as a determinant, the emotions offer greater subjective identification to unnatural stimuli. A few uncontrolled people see this form of mind manipulation being used to lead the masses towards war. While the reason for war always appears to be developed around intellectual reasoning, the real rallying points pivot around the long term, deep rooted feelings that have been cultivated in your minds over many years.

People are medicated so heavily with emotional stimuli, that very few can ever accomplish anything in life. While you imagine, think about, and consider all sorts of things you would like to do in life, you never seem to be able to make your dreams come true. As the years roll by, your mind becomes habituated and addicted to living life in an emotional failure mode. When it comes to making the proper choices and getting things done, your mind continues to worry and speculate upon all sorts of obstacles that prevent you from taking any action towards manifesting your dreams.

You are under the influence of, and listening to, the "puppet masters" as they dictate to your mind and its emotions. You are being controlled. Your life is becoming more and more illusionary, lacking less and less in the substance of experience. The computer, the Internet, and virtual reality are quickly habituating many minds into automatons, to function like robots, in the labs and slave factories of society.

You have lost consciousness of who you really are. You are a prisoner in your own mind. You are being held hostage by the invisible strings of others you do not even know. In fact, these small groups of people want you to stop reading any further, right now.


You must learn how to "switch off" these preconceived ideas and open your mind, if only for a few moments at a time, to see what is being communicated to you. You must learn how to "switch off" or temporarily ignore the subtle programming and imagery being used to control you, if you are ever going to realize your true identity. Whether you believe these things or not, our shared destiny has been realized, and the choice is now yours.



May the wind be at your back old traveller. Peace to you.


N Dave

There's a lone bicyclist headed this way. Nevada Dave rocks.



Well Benza as well as everyone elses performances were great. I enjoyed the music immensely. The bar takes up half the dancing space in there so it's kind of strange. Also it really has that dingy old bar feel to it in a way. The outside was much nicer with the deck and an open air feel. Unfortunately the weather detracted from that and it was a bit cold to be standing out there. All together it was an impressive show.Although I must admit that the wonders of metabolism,peanut butter,crackers,and some herb played their role in my view of things.

Hitler Loves Him Some Balls

Well would you look at that ma, Hitler Ate My Balls.

And just in case anyone hadn't realized the depth of the nuttiness there's this column from the Manifest E-zine.

Well I better get some sleep before these two start talking to each other in heart shaped bubbles.



Benza ... Demon Tea Recordings ...
Benza has been producing Psy trance since 1997 with releases on Tribeadelic Records, Green Ant Records and Deomn Tea Recordings. He has played alongside such artists as Talamasca, Joti Sidhu, Ubar Tmar, Absolom, Nomad, Texas Faggots, Saafi Connection, Alien Project, Atomic Pulse and Mark Allen, recently returning from a massively successful tour of Japan.

This will be his first Texas Appearance.

Local Support ...

Initialization String (subtle distortion) , yonykidd (Doselocos Prod), Dyszfunktional (JeffMadison, WI) , mxmind (Afterlife, knon 89.3, monoerosrecords) Yes, joe will spin psytrance;,UHM (mistical Prod) , Klapton (mistical Prod), xiannaix (Doselocos Prod), Dave Patrick (Doselocos Prod).

Crave 2912 Elm. (corner of malcom x & Elm) in Deep ellum: doors @ 9pm : 5 bucks


Record Players

You could collect records for a lifetime for one record player, hell just imagine how many you have to get for two.


A Letter From Willie Nelson

As anyone who reads this blog knows, I am fully in support of steps towards decriminalizing/legalizing Marijuana. It's time we ended this war against harmless people and a harmless plant. This is a step in the right direction and deserves great attention.

A Note From Willie Nelson

For over 30 years, I have been a supporter of NORML's efforts to end
marijuana prohibition. As someone who has enjoyed marijuana responsibly
for many years, I appreciate that NORML serves as the voice for marijuana
smokers like myself.

Today I am writing you on behalf of NORML with exciting news from my home
state of Texas. Recently, Rep. Harold Dutton (D - Houston) introduced a
bill in the Texas State Legislature to decriminalize the possession of
marijuana for personal use.

This bill recommends that minor marijuana offenders in Texas face a ticket
and a small fine in lieu of criminal arrest and prosecution. This is a
step in the right direction, but it will only receive serious
consideration if our elected officials hear an unmistakable message of
support from their constituents.

Please take two minutes to write your state legislators and tell them how
important it is that they support marijuana decriminalization. NORML has
created pre-written letters that you can send to your legislators by

I have already contacted my state representative and asked for their
support of this bill. Won't you do the same?

As a responsible marijuana smoker myself, I take pride in the fact that
NORML has always spoken for the interests of everyday marijuana smokers.
NORML is working hard in Texas and across the United States to protect
your right to smoke marijuana without fear of arrest or prosecution. Will
you join in me supporting these efforts by donating to NORML today? You
can make a donation, buy a NORML product, or become a NORML member at:

I appreciate your efforts to help NORML decriminalize marijuana in Texas.
Please be sure to contact your elected officials today, and tell 'em
Willie sent you!

Best Wishes,

Willie Nelson
NORML Advisory Board



Just got a copy of Hallucinogen live at the DNA lounge. Dig it, headphones don't do it justice, nor does the surround sound. I can only imagine what it must have been like to be on that floor. Hallucinogen was one of the original responsible for a different trek in my life. That crazy, spilling over with energy music that defied any real definition. The moment I heard it, I felt it and was bit by the bug.

Liquid Crystal Vision was a profoundly moving journey through the psyche and the state of our beautiful world. To quote from the flick, a scene at Stone Henge on the Solstice:

Helen de Mat

A complete restructuring of society based on a true secure brotherhood and sisterhood, cooperative Eden farming and culture! Happy tribal homes working and sharing to create heaven on earth with full help from our government!

To have their tear stained faces kissed with generosity, surrounding them with the grace of flower decked rainbows instead of hells droning bombers, butterflies to dazzle their learning eyes - this is not idealistic -this is common sense!

Really, is that so far fetched?



Thanks to Bush Black Out Referrers for throwing up a list. There are good folk in the world and I was happy to be a part of it. Posted here is the message that the 15 year old young man wrote which accompanied the blackout page of this blog. I post it as a matter of record and as a read into how, I believe, many of our teenagers are even feeling.

At noon, on January 20th, George W. Bush will be sworn in as President for his second term, and although few realize it, this will bring the downfall of Civil Liberties, Democracy, Equal Rights, and Freedom of Speech. On this grave day, we will mourn for the loss of these things which we as Americans have taken for granted, we will mourn for all of America, even those who do not share our thoughts, although they may not realize it, they lost too.

Mourning For America is not a "gang", nor will it participate in any "gang-related activities", we are merely a group of students expressing our deep sadness that the majority of the American people would choose to throw away the things that make our country so great. The ancient Egyptians and Romans used black for mourning, as do most Europeans and Americans today. Honoring this tradition, we will wear all black.

It was proven in the election of 2000 that George W. Bush cared little for Democracy, and in the 2004 election there were pieces of information concerning voting fraud everywhere, we do not want a President who will "cheat" in order to make it to the top.

We call upon each and every person to participate in a silent protest against the inauguration of George W. Bush. We are all just single nails, hammered into the pieces of wood that make up a now corrupt society, but if all the nails refuse to take part in society, how will it stand?

Trust that there are many kids who feel this way. They have to pay for the mistakes of weak individuals. They have to deal with what this world is becoming and are slammed with the task of doing something about it. I greatly respect and admire anyone in their teens who stands away from the consumerist little robots that the corporations are trying to create. I give them all supreme kudos for taking a stand. They rock.


Yeah, beeetches.

Revolution Calling.

(Geoff Tate/Michael Wilton)

For a price I'd do anything
Except pull the trigger
For that I need a pretty good cause
Then I heard of Dr. X
The man with the cure
Just watch the television
You'll see there's something going on

Got no love for politicians
Or that crazy scene in D.C.
It's just a power mad town
But the time is ripe for changes
There's a growing feeling
That taking a chance on a new kind of vision is due

I used to trust the media
To tell me the truth, tell us the truth
But now I've seen the payoffs
Everywhere I look
Who do you trust when everyone's a crook?

Revelution calling
Revolution calling
Revolution calling you
Revolution calling
Revolution calling
Gotta make a change
Gota push, gotta push it on through

I'm tired of all this bullshit
They keep selling me on TV
About thte communist plan
And all the shady preachers
Begging for my cash
Swiss bank accounts while giving their
Secretaries the slam
They're all in Penthouse now
Or Playboy Magazine
Million dollar stories to tell
I guess Warhol wasn't wrong
Fame fifteen minutes long
Everyon'es using everybody, making the sale

I used to think
That only America's way, way was right
But now the holy dollar rules everybody's lives
Gotta make a million doesn't matter who dies

I used to trust the media
To tell me the truth, tell us the truth
But now I've seen the payoffs
Everywhere I look
Who do you trust when everyone's a crook

It is no secret now that we are in a police state. With yesterday's display there can be no doubt that America is under siege by the wealthy elite. It's time for every average citizen to stand up and raise some hell.
Just my .02



For the On the Go type...

Holy Mackeral Batman, that's one helluva vending machine!

A Staff of Thorns

Today I began a staff of thorns.